Silent Letters.

Day 1 - My best friend.

Day 2 - My crush.

Day 3 - My parents.

Day 4 - My siblings.

Day 5 - My dreams.

Day 6 - A stranger.

Day 7 - My ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.

Day 8 - My favourite internet friend.

Day 9 - Someone i wish could meet.

Day 10 - Someone i don't talk to as much as i'd like to.

Day 11 - A deceased person i wish i could talk to.

Day 12 - The person i hate most/caused me a lot of pain.
Day 13 - Someone i wish could forgive me.
Day 14 - Someone i’ve drifted away from.
Day 15 - The person i miss the most.
Day 16 - Someone that’s not in my state/country.
Day 17 - Someone from my childhood.
Day 18 - The person that i wish i could be.
Day 19 - Someone that pesters my mind—good or bad.
Day 20 - The one that broke my heart the hardest.
Day 21 - Someone i judged by their first impression.
Day 22 - Someone i want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 - The last person i kissed.
Day 24 - The person that gave me my favorite memory.
Day 25 - The person i know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 - The last person i made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 - The friendliest person i knew for only one day.
Day 28 - Someone that changed my life.
Day 29 - The person that i want tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30 - My reflection in the mirror.

Carefree days.

Current Mood: Excited HAHAHAHA.

Hey there, just it's me back t blog again. I really hate the way I've been letting this blog rot by itself here, but no choice. Hectic schedules even during the holidays, what you expect me t do right.

OHYA BTW I DROPPED T COMBINED SCIENCE. (Screams like a crazy bitch). :D

These days have been rather perfect anw. I simply enjoyed it. Made a new friend call Adna or Edna or WHATEVER with Gwen. She's a really cute young girl! Only 5 or 6 years old. We don't even know her before she started talking t us and playing really badly, biting our sleeves etc. Her life's damn carefree lor.

And just in case you're wondering what I'm so excited about, it's... THE PICNIC WITH THE GIRLS AT SENTOSA. Yes I'm frigging excited cause I haven't been t Palawan or Siliso for a very long while. The last time I went was probably few years back when my cousins from Canada visit. I was still in primary school then?!?!?! Ok I know I damn sad life lol. So well, I'm really excited. Can you imagine all those fun we would have gossiping, disturbing each other and camwhoring? WOOOOHOOO I CAN'T WAIT YOU ASS! We would prolly make such a din that everyone would be staring at us, waiting for the perfect moment t stomp us hahahaha.

Ok gonna go back twitter now. Stupid Gwen and Joey's disturbing me again.

Self reminder t call Arthur before going t bed. NIGHTZ.

P/s: Celine, will blog about you this crazy girl soon kk, luvz.

Jean Hee.

Current mood: Fucked up?

Don't ask me why, cause I've no idea why I'm so easily pissed these days. It's probably due t the stress working up I guess. Fuck this shit seriously.

Basically, spent my weekends on a lot of shopping and I've spent a lot. Around 600 plus bucks? I rarely spend so much and some on branded goods. I'm not someone who goes for the brand at most times. Argh, great way t relieve stress though, cause apparently I'm not the one who paid for all the items.

Reason why I'm currently feeling super fucked up? All thanks t mofos who choose t shorten my lifespan by surprising me with such things that never fails t affect me. Not as much as before though, I've definitely been much stronger than the old me.

First thing first. You. Yes I'm talking about you. You're that ridiculously sweet ass, fuck. I really hate you. Yet there are times where you really make me melt. It's not easy t try control my urge t talk t you back then, but sorry, I'm over you. Continue your dirty tricks on some other girls instead, I'm not gonna fall for them, at least not in a thousand years time t come. Play some more, sooner or later, you'll burn yourself. Remember mummy told us not t play with fire? ;)

Second person. You. I really don't know what you want. What am I t you exactly? Just a replacement? I suppose so. Our affinity started way back in time but there's a reason why our relationship failed I guess. The thing is, I don't know who's fault is it. I ain't sure if it's just purely me or what. I'm sorry. I need time t think this over. Thanks for asking him t get me t take care anw, I appreciate your thoughts. :)

Third person. You. You're a great friend! Hell man, I don't even know what happened t us. It's like all of a sudden you mia and boomz, you're in. I miss you. I miss the times we had so much fun together. Dear friend, please be good be out soon. No matter how long it takes, I'll wait for you t be out and have fun hanging out together again! :)

Forth person. You. I don't know you, don't wanna know you. Cause you just popped out of nowhere messing my life up. Kthxbaiz.

Last person of them all. You. It's really disturbing that I'm blogging about what I wanna tell you now cause I can jolly well just tell you directly. But I don't wanna sound stupid in front of you. It's pretty amazing how important you're t me now, considering the short period of time since I've known you. Do you know you even rank higher than him? Argh. It's kinda mixed feelings. But sorry, tying you up was never my intention, I don't intend t do that, not in a million years time. All I want, was just some memories I can laugh at when I'm old, thinking back into the days where we were friends. Who knows things would turn out so ugly right now? Fuck this man, I don't even wanna talk t you now, but I can't help it. All that I can say now, is sorry. Sorry for giving you all those shit attitude that I had given you all these times. I'm just horribly messed up.

Ok, yours truly am done ranting. Dear friends are all at Chinese O'levels now. Good luck t them man. At Kirby and Jeremy's crib now, but Jem's not at home cause he's having exams now so I'm basically rotting my time away looking at Kirby playing the darn com. Gonna go watch dong yi now. >_^

School sucks.

Current mood: Missing someone I can disturb.

Hi there. Gotten back some results already. And it isn't all that great. In fact, it sucks. It was worst then I've thought it t be, so well, forget it.

Wednesday was perfect despite the fact that I screwed up my Chemistry Mock SPA. Waited for at least one and a half hour for Xinying before we head t NEX for some window shopping and lunch. Lunch was perfect and the dessert we ate was yummy too. Had talk with her and talks with her are always enjoyable. Yes, ALWAYS. Saw many familiar faces as well. Trained back home and started preparing t head out. Cabbed t Yinglin's place t practice the duet for two hours before cabbing t Punggol Plaza t meet Honghang and (coughs) for dinner. Got lost when I walked home. -.-

Thursday was a bitch.

Yesterday was cross country so it was a bitch too. Plus the fact that someone I can disturb all the time flew off t some other country. Argh.

Random note t the idiot who flew off: Hi you stupid sucker. It's been a day since you flew off. And I'm already so bored. Yet I still have t bear with it for a few more days. I've been trying t peel off the sticker on your calculator actually. HAHAHA. And I found videos of your kuku face in 2008! This is really random. Are you like sleeping or training over there uh. Ok I sound stupid talking t myself. Be back in one piece soon k! Kthxbaiz.

Sorry. I very moronic one. Hehe. ^_<

Lyrics of my love.

Our meeting was a mistake no one ever know.

Everyone, thought we're a perfect couple but we're not.

Sadly, you don't know how much you much t me.

Cause the only one, in your mind, is her.

Looking at you, brings along my teardrops.

Looking at you, brings the sorrow t me.

Looking at you, brings back all the memories.

Hey boy, I miss you.

Our meeting was a mistake no one ever know.

Everyone, thought we're a perfect couple but we're not.

Sadly, you don't know how much you much t me.

Cause the only one, in your mind, is her.

Looking at you, brings along my teardrops.

Looking at you, brings the sorrow t me.

Looking at you, brings back all the memories.

Hey boy, I miss you.

Never did I knew, that you meant everything t me.

Never did I knew, I'll need you so much.

Looking at you, brings along my teardrops.

Looking at you, brings the sorrow t me.

Looking at you, brings back all the memories.

Hey boy, I love you.

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Tags replies.

17 May 11, 03:42 PM NICKSON!: hey! tagged ! link link pl0x D Hi! Sorry, I don't really link people now. But I'll do so when I do k? :)

17 May 11, 01:04 AM Mei: Blogwalking all night long Hi. Thanks for coming t my blog when you're blogwalking! :)

15 May 11, 11:40 AM Peiyi: si jean bo ads how help you clickkk Huh, really no meh. I see got lea. ):

15 May 11, 08:48 AM nitendo: I think that you are going to do volunteering work is a joke ! rofl ! lmao ! LOL ! Nope, it's seriously not a joke lah wth. I even check the organisations I'm legible t do volunteering work already. LOL.

15 May 11, 12:54 AM GGWH: LEFT A PRECIOUS TAG HEYOZ GWENDIE.

14 May 11, 08:47 PM TIFFANY.: BYE EMO JEAN.

14 May 11, 08:47 PM TIFFANY.: HELLO EMO JEAN. Hi Tiffany, but which Tiffy are you? :D

Bimbo Outings.

Love like never before.

Current Mood: Mixed feelings I guess.

Hi peepo. Back for an update again, making sure that my blog won't rot like mad. Sorry for leaving such an emo post that day cause you guys t worry about me. I even got calls and texts from friends man! No worries, I'm alright now already.

Yesterday was a great day! Started the day off with going t school for my Music papers. I was feeling kinda lost because I was the only idiot who don't have papers in the hall unlike those who are taking their Biology Paper 1 or Art Paper so I practically had no idea where t go for morning assembly. Was late btw, and so waited at the parade square till Ms Yong came t tell me where t go. Had my Music papers, and was rather glad I didn't spend too much time studying for it. I screwed up my practical though cause I was a little too nervous. However, on the lighter note, the duet song I played with Yinglin for the first time was simply wonderful. Was much better than I've expected.

Went home and prepared for my great day out soon aftermath. Met Daryl at Compass for lunchie and ended up buying sushi instead. Accompanied him t the bank t settle some stuffs before meeting Celine, Chenming and Diana at Subway. LOL. And yes, we ate our sushi there. Talked about stuffs lalalalala. Took 119 (loop service) with Daryl all the way t Kovan then back t Sengkang again. Parted ways, waited for Meiqi at Rangoon Lrt station and headed t Hougang Plaza for lan. While she went t meet her boyfriend, saw Wesley. Met Gwen and Danston before going back t Gwen's house. Waited for her t prepare then cabbed over t Punggol Plaza in hope of finding the shop Qiuqiu recommended. (some ridiculously stupid events have been excluded, winks.) Trained over t Marina Bay and had loads of fun there. And I seriously mean it when I said LOADS OF FUN. <3<3<3 Went t Marina Square for Mac and cabbed home from there.

Today, slept till 1230. -.-

Disappointments.

Current Mood: Disappointed.

I guess I've t break my own purpose of this blog - t be happy and own those cutehappysmiles.

Today, I realised that, no matter how much you try, you won't succeed. I tried being a better person, because of you people, I tried my very best not t go back t the old Jean. I really did try. But I really don't know whether you all appreciates it or not. It really doesn't matter anymore. Not anymore.

I've learnt my lesson. Next time, I won't even bother asking you all out anymore. What's the point man? Whenever I'm free or allowed t go out, I think of you guys. But what about you all? Have you people, ever in one moment in your life, even if it's just one second, thought of me? I bet the answer is no. I know I can't assume, but that's what you all seriously made me think. I'm not angry, I'm just overwhelmed by disappointment and sadness. Sometimes, I really wonder how much I meant t you all. Am I really that important as you all claimed? Or just that you all don't want me t pester you all and just give me a answer that you don't mean? I'm so speechless that I don't even wanna hurl profanities at you all now. I hate this. I wish I can just stop being a cry baby now. Do you all even know why I'll always think of you people, mentioning you all t my family members? You all mean A LOT. For a person with no siblings, friends are really the most important ones in my life. You all are the people I trust my secrets with, the ones that I'm close with. All I wanted, was just something really simple. I don't even know how much time I've left with you all.

I'm not trying t say that I've been a very nice friend cause I know there are a lot a lot of times when I piss you all off, or do something really stupid that you all will curse me behind my back and roll your eyes at. I know all that. But you all are really important... I'm sorry.

And on top of that, my Dad has t scold me for using computer for practically the whole day for Music, when he don't even know exams has really ended and I'm the only fool who has exam on Monday - Music papers.

I wish I'm dead.